tonight i remembered why i started a blog. It wasn't so i could post pictures about how cool or lame my life seemed to be. Or to talk about what bothered me, or how my day was going. It wasn't even meant to share inspiring random quotes. It simply created for exactly what my URL details. Because i think. a lot. about everything. and i wanted a location where i could think aloud. Because perhaps by some miracle writing them down would help me realize something great. Or by some even greater miracle, my thoughts could help ignite someone else's. i forgot about that. And as frustrated as i was, i wasn't changing it. So in spite of myself, I just deleted it. Not entirely but fictionally. No more blog, no more stress. But now, I wanna say i'm back. Truly back. To be who i am. this erratic, emotional, "on another level", peculiar, thinker.
My grammar may not be pristine. And i KNOW that my spelling will be far from perfect. But I also know, that if you look long enough to pass by the trivial parts...something great is hidden in these words. There always has been. And, thats exactly how life is.
Its a confusing mess. full of distractions and lefts and rights and... well, in the end, when you finally stop the squabbling and treading, you realize that the answer was right there. At the beginning. Where the purity was triggered.
So im no longer going to romantically space my words out, or bold or underline. I'm not going to worry about my font, the music, or even the colour. The only thing thats going to be on my mind when i'm blogging is exactly what I'm thinking about.
Im waking up again.
(ps. in no way did i mean to offend anyone else's blogs. I love em all. i truly, truly do.) :)
