i swear to you if i had a personal computer, with a screen that was bigger then my thumb, i would be blogging ALL the time.
nothings ever quite good enough for me, is it? gee wiz.
the past couple of weeks have been real good. in a lot of ways.
sketchy in a few others, but lets not go there today.
I'm in the process of making slash revising my bucket list.
I'm pretty excited, especially since i have no doubt all the ones i can control, will come to pass.
How cool is it to take control of your life? Both in thought, and in action?
As days go on, i realize more and more that i can do what i want to do, in way more ways then one.
its been very enlightening, and strengthening.
i am no longer afraid to colour outside of the lines, for i see no lines.
& that is the most important part. I'm not breaking "rules" to be defiant.
I am creating new pathways to be true to life.
a couple days ago i was watching the beautiful film "P.S. I love you." {Mr. Butler can marry me at any point, f.y.i.} and i was mesmerized once again by the part where he introduces her to her old self. The one he fell in love with the one "wearing so many colours." In the end of his letter he says, "its okay if you forget me, but please never forget the women on that road."
I think all too often, we disregard the people we ARE as only the kind of people we WANT to be.
as i was watching the film, my friend had texted me asking what i was thinking about, which i replied " I am thinking about living life." Not following my thoughts he asked what I meant and i quickly texted back, "It is so important that we do those things that make us second guess everything, but at the same time make perfect sense. That is what life is about, and if we forget that... then we merely breath and die.. and nothing remains."
There is never a set path for any destination. But I feel like there is a set path for your destination. By this i mean, if ten people want to be a museum curator there will be ten different paths for them to reach their goal.
Each one perfectly made for them. And if any of those kids chose to take someone else's path the only destination they would reach is eventual unhappiness. Even though, technically the destination is the same place. does that make sense?
Point is, don't be afraid to embrace your thoughts and feelings. For your personal convictions make the best actions.
