I have been stupid for a very very long time.
today I realized how much time i have wasted by not loving life. it wasn't like a "oh i love life! its fabulous! and glorious!" and blah blah realization. But more like a " wow. I have really lacked in friendships, and relationships, and movement and other things because I'm so stupidly, not nice." Really.
Have you ever been around someone and while your with them, you can look the other way and roll your eyes as they tell you something funny? Or your talking casually and the whole time the only true monologue in your head is "blah blah I hate you.." ? I do this often. On more occasions then i wish to say. But then.. have you ever been with this person, and someone else comes into the picture.. like a brother of your friend, or a parent, or another friend. And you can tell as these two characters talk, how much they love each other? Just by simple things like the kindness in their voices, and the genuine looks they give each other? Its a real eye opener. You suddenly realize that if you would just stop searching for the negatives, and stop allowing yourself to be easily annoyed that, you too, could love this person.
i realized today just how stupid I have been, for a very very long time, because I have forgotten that simplicity, love, kindness, and humility, are the best ways to treat another living person. Any living person.
Whats odd is just how easy it is to be filled with love, yet i find myself fighting other emotions such as anger, jealousy, annoyance, boredom and so on.
People deserve to be treated with respect. Out loud, and in our heads. it isn't fair of me to smile and nod all whilst cursing them in the back of my mind.
Have you ever been filled with this kind of love? This kind of easy going, simplistic nature? Its one of the most peaceful feelings you will ever feel. Its refreshing, nourishing, and seems to take a load off of every other thing our life entails...
I dunno. I 'm just frustrated with myself. I've gone down hill a lot, and I have probably hurt or let down a lot of people along the way.
Yet, however frustrating it is, there is only one way to fix it.
today I realized how much time i have wasted by not loving life. it wasn't like a "oh i love life! its fabulous! and glorious!" and blah blah realization. But more like a " wow. I have really lacked in friendships, and relationships, and movement and other things because I'm so stupidly, not nice." Really.
Have you ever been around someone and while your with them, you can look the other way and roll your eyes as they tell you something funny? Or your talking casually and the whole time the only true monologue in your head is "blah blah I hate you.." ? I do this often. On more occasions then i wish to say. But then.. have you ever been with this person, and someone else comes into the picture.. like a brother of your friend, or a parent, or another friend. And you can tell as these two characters talk, how much they love each other? Just by simple things like the kindness in their voices, and the genuine looks they give each other? Its a real eye opener. You suddenly realize that if you would just stop searching for the negatives, and stop allowing yourself to be easily annoyed that, you too, could love this person.
i realized today just how stupid I have been, for a very very long time, because I have forgotten that simplicity, love, kindness, and humility, are the best ways to treat another living person. Any living person.
Whats odd is just how easy it is to be filled with love, yet i find myself fighting other emotions such as anger, jealousy, annoyance, boredom and so on.
People deserve to be treated with respect. Out loud, and in our heads. it isn't fair of me to smile and nod all whilst cursing them in the back of my mind.
Have you ever been filled with this kind of love? This kind of easy going, simplistic nature? Its one of the most peaceful feelings you will ever feel. Its refreshing, nourishing, and seems to take a load off of every other thing our life entails...
I dunno. I 'm just frustrated with myself. I've gone down hill a lot, and I have probably hurt or let down a lot of people along the way.
Yet, however frustrating it is, there is only one way to fix it.
