I can't sleep.
again.
big surprise?
so instead, here is a list of things I'm thinking about.
since, that is what I do.
most of them elude to somethings.
somethings I can't really talk about.
because i'm not brave.
or something like that.
1. 1,000 for tomorrow. 1,000 for tomorrow. 1,000 for tomorrow. goal.
2. Who wins?
3. I'm trying to talk to you.
4. I wish you didn't always tell me what you thought about this place.
5. I want to travel the world.
6. Leave some sort of mark.
7. MY mark.
8. the beach & all its serenity is calling to me.
9. erase.
10. you can just let me go now.
11. I ate a cupcake today.
12. & i liked it.
13. so sue me.
14. why am i here?
15. its almost five in the morning. five.
16. I want to share some love with you.
17. who's you?
18. its not like i like to sleep or anything..
19. to be talented would be nice.
20. to be passionate would be better.
21. i'm craving to learn something great.
22. its been a while.
23. you think your so cool. & you are. but just don't think it so loud.
24. I like the way you live your life.
25. & your right about it. laughter is the best way.
26. friends? the emotions are bottled.
27. so you can say farewell now.
28. & I promise not to tear up. or cry. not even bawl.
29. Charlie St. Cloud.
30. You all lead elaborate lives. its cool.
31. answer me this one question: why do you live?
32. your answer better be good.
33. & the only way you can tell that is if YOU really believe it.
34. so, do you believe what you say?
35. I'm making a wish on a star.
36. But he says I still have to work hard.
37. I'm down with that. as long as the star & i remain friends.
38. its all about the maple donuts.
39. its cool, i'll sleep tomorrow on a raft. in the sun.
40. After i make a 1,000.
41. my eyes hurt.
42. "hey, i'm still here."
43. i'm just on some sort of forced vacation.
44. thats all... sorry.
45. its been two months.
46. whaddya think?
47. just let it all out. if there is an "all" to let out, at all.
48. I'd be okay with it if you took me to a ball game.
49. a real ball game.
50. are you running?
51. am I running?
52. turn off your music. or turn it up loud.
53. chips?
54. are you as afraid to grow as i am?
55. which is more important your words or your actions?
56. forgive & forget. right?
57. communication is always key.
58. its pretty entertaining, if you only knew the background.
59. nope. money won't run me.
60. just teach me to learn, not to get a piece of paper.
61. passion... passion.. passion..
62. If i was brave, i would make things better for you.
63. if i were smart, you would be happier.
64. so i'm sorry i'm dumb.
65. you guys are all so cool. SO cool.
66. my eyes still hurt.
67. "hey! brain? it would be sweet if you would shut up."
68. well, it was worth a shot.
69. what are your convictions?
70. "is your life worth watching?"
71. love me, if you can.
72. turn the T.V off. I hate it.
73. oh, and your phone.
74. I really like peanut butter.
75. but i like homemade jam better. YUM!
76. I miss you grandma..
77. so many guidelines..
78. so many rules..
79. so many wrong steps..
80. gotchya!
81. you can come back home now. all of you.
82. because i miss you.
83. star gazing from a dock in silence? you read my mind.
84. red balloons?
85. I hear they take away your inhibitions.
86. or they would if you would listen.
87. somethings written in the stars.
88. & its big.
89. how?
90. why?
91. when?
92. count down to what? death?
93. mmmm, chocolate covered strawberries.
94. i'm so not perfect.
95. not even close.
96. marry the princess.
97. sigh...
98. help?
99. when do you finally know your life was worth it all?
100. if i died, would you be there for me?
