"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference."

Sunday, July 18, 2010

dear friend

My dearest friend, 
     To me, you are sunshine. You are girl nights, and chocolate. You are cupcake shakes, and dancing in underwear. You are blonde and beautiful, spiritual and strong. You are books and movies, but only the kind that make you feel good. You are a women of much value, and you are laughter in the wee morning hours. But right now, you are struggling. And all these things that you are, you can not see for yourself. This relization is heart breaking. How could someone so full of potential and love, but weighed down by such trivial distractions and pains? You are so much. And I wish for you to know this, to help you remember. 
   So, today I was thinking about you. I have been a lot actually. I knew you needed help, but I wasn't sure how to go about bringing you some light. I knew a bowl of ice cream and a cold bath wouldn't sooth this one over.. so I turned to the scriptures. And I know that YOUR Heavenly Father lead me straight to a scripture that was meant for you to hear. I read it, and immediately knew what I had to do.
   In the following, I will try to be a love letter from your Father. I am His tool. But I only hope I can portray this correctly. Please, as you continue to read on, have the spirit with you, and try to feel of His love. It is overflowing. 
   Someone once told me that the book of Psalms is like a fortune cookie. You could open it up, read any one of them, and feel a little inspired for your day. So that's what I did, and I came across this scipture; "Stand in awe, and sin not: commune with your own heart upon your bed, and be still. Offer the sacrifices of righteousness, and put your trust in the Lord. ...Lord, lift though up the light of they countenance upon us." Psalms 4: 4-6. From this, I saw a list of things that I know will help bring peace to your heart, and calmness to your mind. 
   The first words of this scripture are; stand in awe. When I first read this, I fell in love with it. Stand in awe. I know that no matter where we are in life, we have the opportunity to do this, BECAUSE the Lord has blessed each of our lives with so much. I realize that at times, we are so clouded by struggle and pain that it almost seems impossible that we are blessed at all. But NEVER let this concoction of the Devil's , lead you to believe that this thought is true. Whether you stand in awe of the beauty of the earth, or of the angels He has blessed your life with, or even of His plan as it unravels right in front of you.. there is ALWAYS something to be amazed by. He would not leave you alone in grey skies when your heart was already the portrayel of a rain cloud. Look for the sunshine, I promise you it is there. 
   Sin not, is the next thing on the list. But I would like to change the words to "If you love me, keep my commandments." It is the same thing. The path to peace and happiness comes through the simple tasks He asks us to do. Instead of focusing on that which is in the past, such as sin; try focusing on what you can do now, to let Him know you love Him, and trust in Him. Keep His commandments. They are a sure way out of the depths of Satan's grasp. 
   "Commune with your own heart, and be still" To me, these words sound like a beautiful melody I have been searching for. You know that feeling, when you have something to say, but don't know how to say it? Well, this is that moment. ..Commune with your own heart. Your OWN heart. Your heart knows the answers to your pains. Though it is shattered by the world, never will it loose the ability to heal itself through the truth you already know. All it takes, is to be still. Be still. Calm your racing mind, and your shaking hands. This will be hard, but it is possible. And trust me, once you reach the place where you are still, a flood of peace will wash over you, and your heart will become a little stronger, a little better. And i assure you, you will find hidden answers your have been yearning for.
   In life, we seem to hold onto many things. Friendships, old toys, lost loves, even memories. But every once in a while, we come to a point where we need to sacrifice what we loved, for something better. Let go of your tight holds. Sacrifice something you had, for something that will be much more glorious. Let go of that old friendship, and go forth with the understanding that because of your sacrifice, you WILL be blessed. Holding onto what you had is doing nothing but putting a thicker, higher wall around your heart. Let God, write your story.
  And last, but not least, TRUST IN THE LORD. His pathway is perfect, His plan is happiness, and His love for you is endless. I know, with all of my heart, and my soul, that He DOES love you. That He is worried about you, and that He wants nothing more, than for you to feel His love. But you can't do that if you don't trust in Him. Trust Him, and the gates of peace will open. It will be rough, and at times it will seem almost impossible, but if you hold to the truth; than your blessings will come, and your cloudy heart will clear. Trust in Him,friend. He is waiting for you. 
   I love you dear friend. You have meant so much to me, and have taught me so much about life, and of beauty. And through the opportunity of meeting an angel like you, I have come to know and see more of the blessings God has in store for MY life. That is how I know He has the same plans for you. With all of my heart, even when times get rough and I may seem to forget, I will always know that our Father is there. That He loves us, and that the ONLY thing that is holding us back, is ourselves. He never said it would be easy, He only said it would be worth it. YOU are strong. You are great. and You are beautiful. Whatever it takes, right? I love you.. Forever and always. 

your grateful friend, 
     Kiri