Don't think I've forgotten about my war.
You know, of learning to love ones self.
Because I assure you, I haven't forgotten. With every move I make now, the fact that I am in a war, is always on my mind. Its been tough at times, but also good. Recently I've finally embarked on the battle of my body. Kicking it back into shape. and you have NO idea how hard this is for me. haha, I am QUEEN of junk food. If I could, I would eat ice cream, cake, and anything chocolate for breakfast. I would have shakes for dinner, instead of a real meal, and I would wash it all down with some soda pop. Its pretty bad. But, don't get me wrong. Sometimes I eat real food, like fettuccine alfredo with bread sticks, or Little Ceasers pizza's, or even some grilled cheeseburgers. ;)
but, not anymore. Now I am officially healthy. :) ya me!
here is my battle plan:
Because I have the cravings of a pregnant women, I knew I had to start with something that would freshen my palate. So on Tuesday, (after my In-and-Out fries on Monday night), I started a three day detox. This detox consists of eating nothing, and drinking only organic Apple Juice. I know what your thinking, "that is dangerous" or, "that is too crazy." or even, "I could never do that." BUT! before you get all your panties in a bundle, let me assure you that its NOT crazy, it IS healthy, and you CAN do it. Its really simple actually.
See, because the detox is only three days, it doesn't harm your body in anyway. Also, the apple juice is cleaning out your entire digestive system, getting rid of all your cravings and nasty build up. Its FRESHENING your insides. AND its actually recommended to do a cleanse like this often, about every three-four months. Also, for some reason, though I haven't eaten a thing in three days, I'm not TOO hungry. You think I'd be laying on the floor rolling around screaming at the top of my lungs for someone to grab me some fries, right? But really I'm quite fine. However, I am probably too excited to eat an omelet tomorrow morning. ;)
Point is though, is I feel fresh. and clean. and I don't have any annoying cravings. AND I've boost started my weight loss goal. Considering that in three days I've lost 10 pounds. :)))
For those of you shaking your heads, don't worry a cleanse isn't my only battle plan. I've also been running slash walking with a friend every morning and "picking cherries" fifty times a day. (thats an awesome ab work out.) AND I've been looking up some delicious healthy recipes to make for everyone. By the way, it really is true what they say about walking. How it helps you awaken your soul.. Its been so inspiring. :)
I realize though, that my battle of the body isn't going to be won by just watching what I eat, and exercising,its also going to take a little bit of acceptance, and focus. I am trying to teach myself to accept the body shape I have been given, to see it as a gift instead of a curse. I am learning to accept that there are simply some things you can not change about your body. &, thats ok. & in fact, those are the things that make YOU beautiful. I'm trying to focus on the reasons why I'm going into this battle. They aren't "to get a perfect size 2." or, "to be smaller than the boy I like", but rather things such as, "to be healthy" and "to feel sexy in my own skin."
and that my friends, is my main goal. :)
I want to feel sexy in the skin I'm in.
haha, now don't go thinking pole dancer when I say sexy. Cause I assure you that's not what I mean. Its a different kind of sexy. The kind your mom possess, & the women who has traveled the world. The kind that shines, through acceptance of your own body, the kind that makes you feel good; even in big comfy sweaters. :)
