"I am an excitable person who only understands life lyrically, musically, in whom feelings are much stronger as reason. I am so thirsty for the marvelous that only the marvelous has power over me. Anything I can not transform into something marvelous, I let go. Reality doesn't impress me. I only believe in intoxication, in ecstasy, and when ordinary life shackles me, I escape, one way or another. No more walls."
— Anaïs Nin
— Anaïs Nin
No more walls.
This is my challenge.
For too long I've chained my possibilities up. Suffocating myself with weakness, and stupidity. No more can I sit back and watch my life and my future be destroyed by my own personal demons. I may not feel strong enough to conquer my battles, but I know can. Yes, it going to take hard work, dedication, many tears, guts, and TONS of outside encourgment. But I'm ready. Here is my challenge.
From this day forward, I shall begin my journey of self love. I will no longer discourage my faith, diminish my hopes, or torture my body. I will learn to love who I am. But I'm not going to do this by excepting who I have become already. No way. I'm going to do it, by pushing myself PAST my own limitations. I'm going to discover that I HAVE no limitations.
But before I introduce my new plan, I'm going to conquer the biggest demon I have. and that is, for some reason, I have never allowed myself to like who I am, because I've always thought loving yourself, for me at
least, is a selfish act. But as I have studied, and watched, and learned from brilliant examples, I have learned that loving yourself is not a selfish act, but rather a self-LESS act. For, if you accept yourself, you can easily accept others. If you love yourself, you can easily love others. If you encourage yourself, you can make bigger differences in the world. and THAT is whats important. Its time I stop just teaching this, but living as well. So, in order to become the person I'm meant to be, and to do the things I'm meant to do, I HAVE to believe I can do it. I have to learn to love myself. and, I'm finally beginning to become okay with that idea. AS LONG AS, it doesn't go to far. For you must love yourself, but forget about yourself at the same time. Trust me, its a beautiful concept.
In life, its soo important to strengthen every part of who you are. To me, that includes mind, body, and soul. So I call myself, and YOU, to action.. :)
My battle plan:
Through out my days, I'm going to focus on how I can enrich all three aspects of who I am. Instead of pinching my fat rolls, I'm going to do a sit up. Instead of facebook stalking, I'm going to pick up a good read. Instead of waking up and taking a shower first, I'm going to kneel down to pray. Its a simple concept of one thing for another. But though it may be simple, its not going to be easy. So, I plan on keeping myself on tract, by documenting, everyday, how I made a difference to myself that day. I'll post quotes and songs, and personal experiences. Things that will hopefully motivate me, YOU. :)
this is important to me.
this is my battle.
and, I AM GOING TO WIN.
and, in the spirit, some inspirational music. ;)
